Friday, February 25, 2005
Well now aint this a surprise?
I've been gone since September. Haven't kept up with the blog. So thats about Six Months! A lot has changed since then. I came up with more movies other than [censor]. Where as before my blog came from a place of anger this one is more subdued. What can I say leaving High School has been tough. It's hard to leave a place you've grown used to. I mean when your not apart of the system it's like your already dead. I was afraid I'd lose my creative spark but now films come slower if anything. I'm still glad I'm getting ideas to add to my career. I know nobody is reading this but me and one day they will. I dont even want to go into the details of the vast thing that have transpired from September 2004- February 2005.
But I'll try as best I can. In September I helped a friend Eric Zaldivar edit this Muriels footage. Then a couple days later helped him film a short for a class I used to have. It was a sequel to the only film I've ever filmed up till now Beowulf. It was titled Grendel. The film didn't get done so we did a cheap why the film wasn't made style video. It was funny but ultimately pathetic. I let the beans slip about [censor] to Eric, Chris Ferrer and Mitchell when we filmed this short picture thing that involved a Western. They liked the idea. We finished the Western thing and then I started going to the Miami Children's Museum. I got into the Film program if it can even be called that. Then In October went to Horror Nights with Eric and his family. In November I finally cut my hair and my LCD monitor died on me so I had to meet this guy to buy one for 20 bucks until I got a 17 inch CTR. In December I finally got my Learners License and got to drive. I know it was a long time coming. Towards the end I bought the Matrix DVD's set and Halo 2. I went on the spur of the moment to go visit a friend (walking) Robert Pinon the L.O.S.E.R who to my surprise is not working at Winn Dixie anymore and found another job I hope he's happy in. I went to go pick up my sister in Gainesville who revealed she is pregnant with what I think is a girl I have part in naming Aleena. In January I basically played Xbox Live Halo 2 all month and started helping Eric film his 15 minute Western Firearm. I got to drive to his film set alot.
And now for February I entered the 5 sec short thing for Cadillac got a ticket for a headlight and will be finishing filming Firearm with Eric. Whoooo. Seems like a lot didn't happen but it did. Now next Month I turn 19. I can say nothing worked out the way I planned. I recall back in Feb wanting to leave school to do a film titled [censor] which will end up being the best I'll be remembered for. I have not written a screenplay since October 2003 and it sucks. I started with [censor] but stopped so now I'm pretty much trapped. I feel I'm taking my year off of school and pretty soon no matter what I'll be trapped in whatever lifestyle. Be it making films or working etc... it's all the same. I just realized I forgot to say I voted in the election which shows how memorable that event was...Either way my parents have been to kind by allowing me to eat shit at home and do nothing since August or pretty much my whole life. Now the times gonna come to leave the nest and be independent. I'm like ready to handle my future but my present is kinda eh. It's as if I cant move on to be what I'm gonna be (a director/actor/singer blah blah) because I need to get something outta the way first... I dont know what that thing is yet. Maybe it's write a screenplay. I always thought it was driving but I finally got my Learners. Maybe it's to get my real license. Who knows. I'm no longer afraid to drive. Or be the driver. But I am not a jedi yet as Vader would say. I believe theres a reasont that things went as they did for 6 months. I've pretty much come away from the detachments except maybe Eric and Danny not to see them as things I need to ditch. I shouldn't blame them for anything. I dont. Both times in the 6 months I went for Carpe Diem moments that didn't work out for me. Struck out twice so maybe third time will be the charm. But I feel good about the changes I've come through in a year. I'm still lazy but more free. And thats a good thing. Who knows when my next post will be. It's not like anybody will be waiting for them. But still it's nice to reflect on past feelings.
But I'll try as best I can. In September I helped a friend Eric Zaldivar edit this Muriels footage. Then a couple days later helped him film a short for a class I used to have. It was a sequel to the only film I've ever filmed up till now Beowulf. It was titled Grendel. The film didn't get done so we did a cheap why the film wasn't made style video. It was funny but ultimately pathetic. I let the beans slip about [censor] to Eric, Chris Ferrer and Mitchell when we filmed this short picture thing that involved a Western. They liked the idea. We finished the Western thing and then I started going to the Miami Children's Museum. I got into the Film program if it can even be called that. Then In October went to Horror Nights with Eric and his family. In November I finally cut my hair and my LCD monitor died on me so I had to meet this guy to buy one for 20 bucks until I got a 17 inch CTR. In December I finally got my Learners License and got to drive. I know it was a long time coming. Towards the end I bought the Matrix DVD's set and Halo 2. I went on the spur of the moment to go visit a friend (walking) Robert Pinon the L.O.S.E.R who to my surprise is not working at Winn Dixie anymore and found another job I hope he's happy in. I went to go pick up my sister in Gainesville who revealed she is pregnant with what I think is a girl I have part in naming Aleena. In January I basically played Xbox Live Halo 2 all month and started helping Eric film his 15 minute Western Firearm. I got to drive to his film set alot.
And now for February I entered the 5 sec short thing for Cadillac got a ticket for a headlight and will be finishing filming Firearm with Eric. Whoooo. Seems like a lot didn't happen but it did. Now next Month I turn 19. I can say nothing worked out the way I planned. I recall back in Feb wanting to leave school to do a film titled [censor] which will end up being the best I'll be remembered for. I have not written a screenplay since October 2003 and it sucks. I started with [censor] but stopped so now I'm pretty much trapped. I feel I'm taking my year off of school and pretty soon no matter what I'll be trapped in whatever lifestyle. Be it making films or working etc... it's all the same. I just realized I forgot to say I voted in the election which shows how memorable that event was...Either way my parents have been to kind by allowing me to eat shit at home and do nothing since August or pretty much my whole life. Now the times gonna come to leave the nest and be independent. I'm like ready to handle my future but my present is kinda eh. It's as if I cant move on to be what I'm gonna be (a director/actor/singer blah blah) because I need to get something outta the way first... I dont know what that thing is yet. Maybe it's write a screenplay. I always thought it was driving but I finally got my Learners. Maybe it's to get my real license. Who knows. I'm no longer afraid to drive. Or be the driver. But I am not a jedi yet as Vader would say. I believe theres a reasont that things went as they did for 6 months. I've pretty much come away from the detachments except maybe Eric and Danny not to see them as things I need to ditch. I shouldn't blame them for anything. I dont. Both times in the 6 months I went for Carpe Diem moments that didn't work out for me. Struck out twice so maybe third time will be the charm. But I feel good about the changes I've come through in a year. I'm still lazy but more free. And thats a good thing. Who knows when my next post will be. It's not like anybody will be waiting for them. But still it's nice to reflect on past feelings.
