Banality Bites

This month has been interesting but not really. Robert Pinon and I finally met up with each other on April 3rd. Eric and I gave him a copy of Firearm which has all been screened out. We made a commentary as a special feature and Fernandez's dog died. I got to talk with Rob but sadly the connection wasn't there. After all my anger for us to hang out when we finally did it felt like two strangers in a room. Maybe there is just to much space between us. Like Pink Floyd says what shall we do to fill these empty spaces. I also feel some spaces long overdue growing between Eric Zaldivar and I. He just finished Firearm and is trying to milk it but it's over. The film is done and he is now graduating in June. I found out he's not going to any real college but a shitty community college. Like me he wants to be a director. Are goal was to move into L.A. though I think we both know thats not going to happen and by December of 2005 we most likely will be tired of each other. Sometimes people need to move on. To sort of get back in the movie making craze I came up with the idea of doing a film noir which is what this month has been Noir month. With the help of a friend Timothy we have been watching old WB Gangster films. Unbeknowst to Eric I told Rob about a film I already had in mind called [censor] which has evolved into this huge film. It is a gangster picture set in prohibition times. Thats all I can say. It invovles talking_____________ sorry can't say! But trust me it's going to kick the gangster genre in the balls big time. I came up with much songs for it and want Pooch Hall,Bruce Willis, and Britney Spears to star. The songs I believe are good enough to have been old hits.I've long since abandoned the Pixar idea I had a month back and now am fully concentrated on getting this gangster picture made which seems impossible. I also updated a previous idea with a film kinda like Pi called [censor]. I still want my Pixar films done but I need to concentrate on picking a film to do. It seems like it will be [censor] Maybe [censor]. This month we saw Sin City which didn't suck. But yes I'm still unemployed living at home with my mom. No nothing nada zilch. I live the life of an old man in retirement. Most of my friends have left and the ones I do have I feel its time they leave to. In many ways this year off from public education has been helpful. It was just last January I came up with what I believe my greatest film will be. It involves [censor] (he he). But alas I've not directed anything since Beowulf and I feel that since High school began for me in 2000-2005 I've sorta had my free time and now its time to like become Mr.Matinee (he he). My father says he found me a job doing volunteer work for some news staion but in my heart I know I don't wanna work. Hate me for saying but work is a complete waste of my talent. I would die working some shitty minimum wage job when I know I have other pressing matters to do (MY MOVIES! MY ART! MY MUSIC! MY INVENTIONS!). I did decide if I ever have a baby girl I will call her Ella Rey. Which probably means I will have one. Since my inability to connect with women is one of my highlights. I guess Aleena will be my warm up. Well so far for 05 it's been 4 months and Nada! Next month Star Wars!